Malcolm's Autobiography

Since i got nothing to do, and trying to learn new things by viewing other ppl's blog to make my blog more colorful and interesting..Meanwhile, I decided to upload my childhood photos LOL

Actually I'm kinda sad when ppl see these photos when i was small, they were like "aww so cute", but then they continue saying "totally not same with u, when u were small u look so cute, now not cute at all" T.T so sad to hear that frm ppl, but i think that's the fact i have to accept >_<























and now...

It's been quite some time i didnt update my blog, since i'm so busy with uni life. Damn those never ending assignments and mid tests, and now FINAL EXAM..Yesterday was my second subject exam, which's management accounting and i didnt do well in the exam, felt so upset with myself. Regret that i didnt do my revision earlier T.T but once done is done, i wish i can turn back time sigh.. Well, there are still 2 subjects to go which is on 19th and 22nd respectively, and i'm so nervous with the 19th subject, which is corporate law, darn..I'm so stressed! I really hope i can do well in the exam, must study hard! x.x

Well well, what a year..it's jz only the beginning of the year and i already had 3x surgery, the first and second were the wisdom teeth surgery and then it's followed by nasal surgery =[

I really hope that this is the last surgery of the year for me, well i had a nasal surgery simply because my nasal bone was not normal and i was breathing with only single nostril.. March 19th 2009 was the day i had the surgery. The nite b4 my surgery i was asked to fast by the doctor, basically cannot eat and even drink..

So, the day which is March 19th, i woke up at 10 am and was asked to sleep again by my mom n sis, they afraid that i was getting hungry, so i went back to sleep until almost 11 ++ which by then they woke me up and asked me to get ready to go to hospital. When we reached the hospital, my brother in law helped me to do the procedures for checking in to the hospital, im really thankful that he's so willing to help and to be honest, i really troubled him a lot.

After that, me and my mom were led by the nurse to the room and I was in a 2 bedded room, since it's jz only for a single nite..but well to my surprise, the room was very clean n there's lot of space as well..so it's kinda comfortable for me. My mom kept consoling me and i'm so thankful i hav such a loving mom. Then, a few minutes the nurse asked me to change into the surgery or perhaps the hospital clothing along with paper panties LOL and then i was asked to lie on the wheel bed and was pushed by the two nurses throught corridors, rooms and elevator, all i saw was the hospital ceiling and at the same time, i imagine myself similar to grey's anatomy where the patient was pushed in the wheel bed during the emergency..haha..

Next, i remember i was pushed into a room where there were so many ppl, i mean nurses, surgeons or watever proffesion they are..There, i was asked a few questions, like wat's ur name, why are u here, which one is ur signature, and i felt so weird, but watever.. Anywy, then i was again pushed to a final room where i saw so many nurses, surgeons who all wore green mask, green cap, green clothing..and then i remebered they stripped me to half of my body and stick the round thingy for the heart detection or whatnot. Then i remember they then infuse me which hurt a bit only and then i was given like oxygen mask to breathe, but actually it's not oxygen but rather somekind of anaesthetic gas that basically put me to sleep or rather passed out >_< The first breathing, i remember i choked and cough a bit and the second time when i breathe again, i think i passed out already since i didnt remember anything.

Next thing i remember was that, i was asked to wake up by sumone there, and i felt damn exahusted and i think i was half awake, both of my eyes were damn heavy..i think i heard lots of noises around me and i remember i was shaking badly because of cold, and my mom told me that she asked the nurses inside there to cover me up. Thanks mom =)

Then i think i was again pushed and transferred to my room, i remember i was so thirsty and i was having a very sore throat, and at that time, i was kinda half awake, i kept asking for water and i wasnt allowed to drink, so my mom had to keep consoling me that i wasnt allowed to drink until further instructions by the doctor. I knew that my mom's heartache over my condition that time, and i really felt sorry for her and thankful to her and thank god that i was given such a wonderful mom.. After about 8 or 9 pm, i was finally fully awake, and had a swollen teary eyed and felt so dizzy, blood kept coming out thru my nose if i faced down..but the doctor told my mom that that's normal, so there's nothing to worry.

I jz felt my whole body was extremely tired..After almost 11 pm that day, my mom went back and told me that she's gonna come to see me again tmrw morning, and i said ok. Then..it turned out that i slept too long and the night i couldnt even fall asleep.. I was soo suffering, i couldnt sleep, neither sit nor stand was convenient for me..That night, i kept trying to close my eyes hoping that i would fall asleep, then when i open my eyes and looked at my handphone, it's jz only 15 minutes past or perhaps 30 minutes past..i was hoping that morning came quickly..That was extremely suffering for me.

After awaken for almost the whole nite, finally morning came and the doctor came for check up and asked me whether i felt dizzy or whatnot and that if i do, he was gonna asked the nurse not to serve me breakfast, HELL NO, when i heard that, i quickly answered NOT DIZZY AT ALL, cos i've been without food and water for almost 2 days, and in my mind, i thought, even if i was dizzy that time, i'm gonna say "NO", cos im damn hungry T.T

Then at about 9am, the nurse came in and server the breakfast for me and i finished the whole fish porridge, milo and one Nesle Cup ice cream in like few minutes LOL and i felt so satisfied..After that i felt asleep till about 10 or 11, my mom n brother in law came and complete the procedures to check out frm the hospital. I felt so glad that i finally left the hospital, cos it's a NIGHTMARE in there ^^

Through this blog, i would like to thank my family, esp my lovely MOM for all the love she gave since i was born and im so glad that she said 'i nvr care about how much was spent, the most important thing is that you're healthy' and im really so touched when i hear that and thankful that i have such a wonderful mom, and to my dad who support us, the whole family financially and with love and care, secondly i would like to thank my er jie and er jie fu, who keeps on helping me so much eventho she's pregnant, and i really troubled my brother in law a lot, thank you so much for all the help and i really appreciate it so much..and i wanna thank those who has been supporting me through my recovery process, cook a lot of delicious food for me and whatnot.. and lastly, to all my friends who cared for me as well =)

Life is Wonderful, Thank You So Much!!!

Cheers! ^^

So, it's been almost a week since i cm back to malaysia, and new semester has started this week. Well, this is my first time i'm feeling homesick, i dunno why, but the first day i cm back here which was on the 19th was kinda miserable, although i came back here with my friend on the same flight. Perhaps, i'm so used to the lifestyle in my hometown.

As i said b4, this new year and new semester is gonna be different, and i know there will be a lot of changes in my life, in terms of studies, friendship, and....who knows wats to come, but i'll jz keep my fingers cross on everything. Remembering the failures that i had gone through in 2007, the year 2008 definitely was really a great year for me, since it was kinda a newstart for me, and it's the year where i'm maturer, stronger, work a bit harder, wiser, and at the same time giving me the chance to meet so many great new friends.

Having said that, there are also regrets and guiltiness that i felt til now, but..well, i'm 20 years old, and im still growing up and i've made some bad choices jz like anyone, im sure, and so now i jz hav to deal with the consequences. Hence, i really trying to take everything that i go through as a life lesson, and really try not to make the same mistake twice.

There's a saying that "When one door closes, another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us." That's the quote from Alexander Graham Bell, and it turns out to be damn right cos somtimes in life, one door closes, we may regret that that part of our life is over but often doors closed so another door can open and it's usually because something better is behind that open door!

Therefore, never give up on the first failure, it's not like it's the end of the world! Every failure is a learning experience. Just remember, "When one door closes, another door opens".

Cheers!!!

So, today is the valentine's day and i dont even realize it until i read the newspaper xD

Whether you're single or in relationship or married, this is the day to celebrate love and friendship! Although, I'm single, I still love this day cos everywhere i see fills with "love" atmosphere.

Well, i wish everyone Happy Valentine's Day =)

First of all, wish everyone a Happy 牛 Year, Gosh..time flies so fast, it's Chinese New year again..

Well, 2008 was an amazing year for me, although there was time when i had to face a tough decision, but overall i was quite satisfied with the decision i made, and at the same time making new friends and had the opportunity to go on a holiday to Redang Island with them. We had been to many places and brought back lots of wonderful memories.

But the year 2009 is gonna be different, at least for me since im planning to transfer to Australia and i really hav no idea watsoever that this is what i want and whether i'm choosing the right path. Anywho, the year 2009 is kinda vaque for me and i really hope that there will be a hint for me and miracle will happen anytime soon.

Well, until next time Cya!

So, this evening i went on having a minor surgery on my wisdom tooth, i felt myself so pity because i hav to go to dentist alone cos my mom gotta attend someone's wedding and actually she asked my bro's gf to go with me, but i jz felt dun wanna trouble her, so i go by myself.

When i reached there, there were so many patients and the dentist decided to do me last, which i waited for about 1 hour, and eventually was my turn. Before a wisdom tooth is extracted the tooth and its surrounding tissues of course will need to be numbed. Dentists numb teeth and tissues by way of administering a "local anesthetic." After i felt half of my surrounding mouth is numbed, then the dentist started to extract it out and the process took quite sometime and i felt so suffering because it hurt a lot.

Since today is Saturday, the dentist supposed to close at 7 PM but that time it's already almost 7pm, so i think the dentist kinda rushing to extract it out before it's completely numbed or perhaps the dosage was too small. Anywy, i was so suffering and it hurts so bad and i kept trying to bear the pain and wished that the anesthetic will work faster to completely numb it but i still feel the pain. I felt my whole body was shivering and sweating, which then the doc asked me, and i said it hurts and then she was like "huh? it hurts? and i said yes, and then she injected me again which by then the wisdom tooth was almost extracted.

Jz imagine that the whole process of extracting the tooth was full with pain, now i felt myself so stupid that i didnt even complain to the doctor till i can barely bear the pain, sigh..

I felt so trauma and thinking that i still hav two other wisdom teeth to be removed, makes me feel that i wanna cancel the next surgery =[